Day: June 12, 2016

A temporary truth?

Do you know that moment when it just feels right — when it feels true?

I write my words as best I can. They seem to reach and touch that realm of truth sometimes so close and often so far away. And then I walk away.

I return to my words and I ask them, are you still true? Am I? It doesn’t feel the same as it did when you spilt out of me. What happened? Are you not the same? Am I?

Rising to the challenge — and anxiety

I’m anxious. I’m anxious about not knowing how to do what I am expected to do. I’m anxious about a situation from which I don’t know how to get out. Wrapped in chains, thrown overboard and expected to swim.

What’s my escape? Go do what I know? Go back to teaching? I know teaching. I’m comfortable with teaching. I don’t want to teach because teaching doesn’t challenge me anymore. It doesn’t make me feel anxious.

This feeling of anxiety is one way I know that I’m in the right place — doing the right thing. If this feeling subsides, I need to move on. I need to find a new challenge. Something that makes me anxious.